Phases

I have been in a strange place in my head, and I have been seeking something, unsure what exactly. The routines and business of life bog me down. I like a schedule, however I seek spontaneity. I need it to thrive. I daydream of being back out on a rock, climbing, or hiking, splashing in waterfalls... I fantasize about trips around the world, seeing everything and meeting interesting people from all over. 


I'm finding it hard not to be overwhelmed with this feeling of being stuck. What if I don't want to be a responsible adult yet? It's a challenge to have a husband in law school, be in school myself, work, and also have financial and family troubles. Whereas I used to be all about buying a house and having a baby, I am now running in the opposite direction. 


I have been trying to speak more openly to my therapist and my friends, and I am humbled by it. My friends, including my best friend/husband, are amazing. I cannot even put into words how much they have helped me in this phase of my life. I'm so gracious for how they warm my heart.